Meeting @thisisryanross and @Iamjonwalker So. It all started when we were in line outside. Ryan and Jon walked right next to us and got in a car to drive away somewhere… I shocked myself by not screaming and/or squealing. So then we went inside and the show began. The first band played and it was pretty good. For an indie band. lol Then, FINALLY The Young Veins came on stage. All at once, every part of me that disliked Ryan and Jon died.
Ryan Ross has /THE/ cutest face ever!
Anyway, so I told Ryan that I loved him and he smiled at me and said “thanks!” NoILoveYouTooButFine. So then they played a new song called “Defiance” It was really good. I can’t wait for the new album. I wasn’t planning on buying it. But I am for sure now. After that song they played “Change” and it was awesome! someone asked Jon why he wasn’t wearing his flip flops and he was like “Its cold in here!” lol it was awesome. So then, after the song, I wanted Ryan talking to me on video, so as I was recording, I yelled “I love you Ryan!” And he turned around again, looked at me and smiled and said “Thank you”. And Jon steps up to the mic and says “Thanks” all sarcastically. So I yelled “I love you too, Jon!” Lol, fun times. And they played a bunch of new songs from their album that comes out in June, and Jon sings a few songs, he has a good voice!
Theeeen, they were done so we booked it over to the waiting place to meet them and we were standing in theis group thing and Ryan was standing next to us and I said “Hey Ryan! Good job!” because I didn’t know how to speak or what to speak. So he was like “Oh, thank you! Thanks for coming tonight, I really appreciate it.” Then he smiled and said “I’ll be right back to hang out, I have to go help clean up” So he left to go help clean up and we met Jon and he was awesome. Only Amanda got stuff signed then though.
So Ryan’s trash-ho (Z Berg) stole him and Jon and they went upstairs for a while, then they came back down and were signing stuff. So I got a picture with Ryan, got him to sign my shirt, and my camera, and he was holding my sharpie and looking around so I told him “You can keep that.” And he said “Oh, thank you so much! I didn’t expect anyone to actually show up!” And we laughed, etc. And he signed my shirt right under my panic necklaces. It was awesome. And he said “I really hope to see you guys again soon!” I melted. lol
Then we left Ryan, and moved over to Jon. Jon was so awesome, like…Ryan was SO cute and stuff but he wasn’t too good at conversing. But Jon was so talkative. I love him! So he signed my shirt and camera and took a picture with me and as I was looking at the picture he leaned over REALLY close and looked with me and said “Aww! Thats a cute one!” lol he was such a sweetie!
And after that everyone was kind of gone, so Jon gave us all hugs and thanked us multiple times for coming. And before we left I said “Can I ask something?” And Jon said “Sure” and I said “Do you guys like still talk to Spencer and Brendon?” And he said “Well, we’ve just been really busy with recording and stuff, so it’s been hard, but I talked to Spencer on his birthday.” So I said “Yeah, its just that a lot of people think you guys hate eachother.” And he replied this: “Well….” Insert extremely long pause here. “Hate is a strong word….” So yeah….Panic! and TYV, they don’t like eachother. lol I SOLVED THE MYSTERY FOR YOU! You’re welcome.
So after that, we said goodbye and left without my sharpie. lol
THE END.
BEST. NIGHT. EVER. <33333333333
lyric sneak peak
“get out your guns, battle’s begun.
are you a saint or a sinner?
if love’s a fight, then i shall die,
with my heart on a trigger.
they say before you start a war,
you better know what you’re fighting for.
well baby, you are all that i adore.
if love is what you need, a soldier i will be.
i’m an angel with a shotgun,
i fight until the war’s won.
i don’t care if heaven won’t take me back.
i’ll throw away my faith, just to keep you safe.
don’t you know you’re everything i have?
i want to live, not just survive.
so i’m going to hide my wings tonight.
sometimes to win, you’ve got to sin.
don’t mean i’m not a believer.
even the bombs will sing slong,
when you march like a dreamer.
they say before you start a war,
you better know what you’re fighting for.
well baby, you are all that i adore.
if love is what you need, a soldier i will be.
i’m an angel with a shotgun,
i fight until the war’s won.
i don’t care if heaven won’t take me back.
i’ll throw away my faith,
just to keep you safe.
don’t you know you’re everything i have?
i want to live, not just survive.
so i’m going to hide my wings tonight.”
these are lyrics from a song off of our upcoming album. not sure if i’m allowed to post these yet…but i’m doing so anyway. i know it seems like it’s taking forever to come out…but i promise it will be worth it. we are so close to completing it. i’ve never put my heart into anything as much as i have with this album. enjoy.
-alexander
p.s. photo courtesy of bianca gordon (@symphoniclens)
Me and Laurel with our sext statue. His name is Sherbert! :D I miss that class!! Last year was the best
Happy birthday to my little munchkins. I miss you two. Happy third birthday Blake and Connor. <3 Stop growing up so fast.
Love, TT
This is what happens when me, Cambria, and Tyler are left home alone. My family is AWESOME
I had a dream last night we
Drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights
I wish you could have seen us
Begging for change to get home
Or at least San Francisco
Let’s put a ten on the high card
And spend a summer on the west coast
Down and to the left
(Here’s a map and the pen, the place you pointed at)
Be California’s best
(All I ask, all I ask)
And please don’t tell me that I’m dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it’s over
I’ll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I’ll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to
Down and to the left
(Here’s a map and the pen, the place you pointed at)
Be California’s best
(All I ask, all I ask)
And please don’t tell me that I’m dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it’s over
I’ll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
Memories
I had a dream last night we
Drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights
Please don’t tell me that I’m dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it’s over
I’ll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I’ll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to
Down and to the left
Jamie all Over, Mayday Parade. I think this is the cutest song I have ever heard in my life. I don’t know what about it speaks to me so much, but it is just beautiful.
These people are so amazing, it is hard to comprehend it.
My family is the best.
You people mean the world to me.
Is it weird that it isn’t enough for me?
That having an AMAZING family doesn’t help my feeling all alone? Because you are all awesome. But, I need more. I need actual /friends/. Which sadly, I don’t have. I never have had any. They say a friend is a very hard thing to find, and its true.
I feel alone tho. Don’t ask me why, just listen. For once, listen to what I have to say.
People often ask me why I am so mean to myself.
And the answer the that question is very hard to answer unless you are in my head. And have gone through what I have. Even if you know what I’ve been through, you didn’t go through it, so it isn’t the same.
However,
I have come up with a simple phrase that should answer it.
You are supposed to be your own biggest critic, right?
Well, then I have a lot to live up to.
Where does self confidence come in for people like me? Well, sadly it doesn’t. It used to, but people took it from me. And now I am just a girl stuck in a world, feeling lost and lonely. As cliche’, and emo as that may sound.
“You can’t find your place in a world that wasn’t meant for you”
So true. But, I feel like this world, WAS meant for me, I just need to find my place in it. And I know that it is, because there is people that I talk to that just make me feel welcome, and help me be myself. And the sad thing is, those people I know only from online. One day, I will find people who share my outlooks on life and treat me right, even if that doesn’t happen anytime soon, it will. One of my friends said “One day, you will find that certain guy who will come along and show you just how amazing you are.” and even if she was talking to my other friend, I believe this is true for everyone. So if I have to wait for years to come, I will. because as Keltie Colleen once said “I deserve the stars” No matter what you throw at me, or how badly you try to put me down, I will not give up. I am going to find my place on this earth and when I do, I hope you look at me and regret all the shit you said.
Because I am an amazing person. Even if I am the only one who knows that.
Someday, you all will.
Someday, it will be my time to shine.
Someday, that certain guy will come along and tell me that I am beautiful.
Someday, I will find my place.
It may take time, but I can do it.
I know I can.
And I will.
